Grossness

Cat: Why are we so gross?
Me: I dunno..
Cat: Maybe it's b/c we're at girls schools

Jephthah's Daughter

Back from DC... the things that I learned are all keepsaked in my journaljournal, and some written in the DC blog for all to read ~ God is faithful...

God said to Jephthah that He would help them defeat their enemies, the Ammonites... yet Jephthah did not trust in God completely, and made a vow to sacrifice whoever came out of his house to meet him after battle IF God saved them. And God saved them indeed. Thus, Jephthah's daughter died... because of her father's lack of faith...

Jephthah's daughter - what was her name? We aren't told, and we may never know (until we meet her in Heaven?) ~ but her faith was amazing too. She replied, without hesitation, that what her father promised to the Lord he must fulfill. I wonder, how old was she? Would I be able to say that? She did not cry out and beg for a change in this, but kept firmly to it... I don't know how much of this was because of her love for the Lord, but dude, how many of us would be able to say, "Yes Lord, take my life if that be Your will..."???

On the way back from DC, I seriously thought the plane was going to crash (as did Liz) - I was freaking out, but I also thought, "Lulu, if you were to die now, or maybe in 20 minutes on this plane, in pain and in flames, would you be joyful anyway? Would you be able to praise God all the way down? Would you be able to give up your plans for the rest of your life, be content to leave the earth as you are?" 

And after much thought... I realized, yes and no. I would be happy to go meet God face to face, I would love it!!! Dude, that'd be awesome, minus all the flames and stuff. No, I wouldn't be so overjoyed in that moment of well, not so happyness. But then, who am I to choose my way out? Who am I to decide to tell God, "Hey Daddyo, can I go in peace in my sleep? You know, bypass all that pain and whatnot?" Jephthah's daughter had no choice... rather, she chose what honored God, which was a promise, however rash and stupid, to the Lord... 

In our case, there may not be a rash "deal" broken out with God. There may not be a battle in which, because we doubt, we make a terrible bargain with God. But, how often do we still do so? How often do we try to test God's faithfulness? Or the limits of His ability? We may not think it straight up in our heads, but we surely think it inside somewhere, even beyond the reaches of our own understanding...

But God says, "Come to me...", those who are weary, of life, of themselves, of the world. "Come to me... and I will give you rest." Rest from our worries, from our lack of faith in Him, from our selfish desires and our prideful selves that drag us down so much... and we don't even know it! Look up and be saved.

Break time

ATD Spring Tour 2009 Blog

- a recording of our random times and not-as-random times...

Sunny Tuesday

I've been posting a lot. Hahaha
Today is St. Patrick's Day! I totally forgot. I would have worn my gear - green/clovery shirt+socks+whatnot :( But now I'm just wearing grey and black D: Bummer... One time back in kindergarten, I busted out the greens on the 16th to school. Oops. Clearly I don't know my holidays.

We have St. Patrick's Day brownies at the office today :) Also, God provides! He provided an awesome ride to work via coworker-who-came-back-from-dunkin-donuts-along-moody-st-just-as-i-was-walking-to-the-office-from-the-commuter-rail.

I also had a wonderful talk with my daddyo on the way to the rail :) Love my family... but most of all, God is awesome. Regardless of the situation at hand (or foot).

The scrolly thing on this mouse is broken :( It doesn't go down... only up. It's kind of saddening to not be able to hear the little 'clikclikclik' that it's supposed to make as I scroll down a page... Wah!

Mice have high accuracy and high speed - very nice user interface. Look how far we've come!

A brief history:


The first mouse... GHETTO! But it worked.


Rolly ball mice. And the joys of cleaning them. One time I put lotion on the inside of the mouse... and it didn't squeak for weeks! :)





Other rolly mice. They work upside down and sideways! Awesome.




Laser/optical mice - very nice very nice


Laser pointer mice - you know, just in case.




Creepy mice.


Versatile (nerdy) mice.


Multipurpose (confusing) mice.


Alien mouse.


Prehistoric mouse.



Cute mice. Hahahhaaha


And Walle. He's not a mouse, but his movie showcased mice. And he's awesome.


End break.

My feet smell. Sad face.

One thing I remember - Yao's feet never smell! At least not yet. I was utterly shocked. Maybe she's that girl who doesn't ever fart, burp, poop, or insert-any-unsightly/smelly-bodily-function. So they DO exist...

An introduction to my thoughts right now - I'm going backwards in a stream, against an ever-flowing current, which doesn't pause for breathing breaks or let down for the weak to progress even a tiny bit. Sooner or later, this stream will lead to the river, where any hesitation on my part will bring me back so much more - good thing I'm not the one swimming. On my own at least...

What brings comfort? Sometimes a hot bowl of soup is comfort, or a cool breeze, warm sunshine - maybe it's white rice with peas and eggs and shrimp on a cold night, or the smell of Malaysian soy sauce, or fuzzy slippers and smiles of good friends. 

Ultimately we can't depend on these for comfort - even on the warmest, more sincere, most loving of friends and family... True, they may bring deep comfort, but ultimately, that is all drawn from the source of comfort that is God. Holy Spirit, Comforter... 

Let your strength be from Him and Him only... your security be founded on Him and Him only. Your love be first and foremost to Him, your passions and desires all for His loves too... Ahhh Lord knows how hard it is. Literally. But He's there through it all.

Break

王力宏 has such good English... I forget that and everytime I hear him sing in English I am a little shocked. 潘玮柏 also has really good English. Why is my English so not good? Dang...

My nails are painted!

It is a beautiful day. Not only b/c it's sunny and warm (it's nearing 60! duude...) but b/c this is the day that the Lord has made. Approach it with gladness... b/c God is good!!!! It's 3:25.

What are you waiting for?

- Natalie Grant 

Sometimes I get that overwhelming feeling - so sad, those faces on TV...  If I tried to make a difference, would it help anyway? But then I stop and to myself I say, "So you wanna change the world - What are you waiting for? You say you're gonna start right now - What are you waiting for? It only takes once voice so come on now and shout it out! Give a little more - What are you waiting for?"

Sometimes I feel a little helpless - seems like I can't do a thing. But anything is possible, just you wait and see -  good things happen if you just believe! So you wanna change the world - What are you waiting for? You say you're gonna start right now - What are you waiting for? It only takes once voice so come on now and shout it out! Give a little more - What are you waiting for?

Someday somehow, gonna take that step cause time is ticking away. Right here right now before it's too late, gonna face tomorrow today - So you wanna change the world - What are you waiting for? You say you're gonna start right now - What are you waiting for? It only takes once voice so come on now and shout it out! Give a little more - What are you waiting for?


There are some things worth waiting for, and some that we should wait for. But other things not so much - why wait to follow in God's footsteps? Why wait to give our heart and mind and soul, all fears and desires to Him? Why wait to obey His voice, to love Him without holding back? Why should we wait until "later", when the time is "right" or "better"? What do we know about time anyway? Except that it passes by in an hourglass permanently glued to a table, with no rewind button... 

I realize now... I can say with full assurance that I know nothing except that which He has revealed to me... I can rest assured in being unsure of my immediate future. I can have peace in the midst of storms, safety in the torrents of chaos, because my safety and assurance lie in something not named Circumstance, Accomplishment, or Luck, but in Someone named Jehovah-Elohim, El-Elyon, Adonai, Jesus! 

Isn't it awesome? Our Lord is God. Wooooooow...