Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Craving Dumplings

And wonton - ahhhhh so good D:

It's so nice outside. I want to be done with all that I need to do... and not worry. Period.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Some words from Scott Kim

[A designer and computer scientist - one who revels in the art of Human Computer Interaction]
"When a discipline becomes a way of life, priorities become invisible."
Priorities become invisible - because the habits that these disciplines create seem invisible... we no longer recognize that we do something the way we do it, because we are so used to it. Wouldn't it be awesome if our spiritual disciplines were such habits? Not that we lose track of our priorities, or blindly run through actions throughout our days... but that we'd be able to follow God's teachings without questioning, without even encountering that debate that happens in our minds (or doesn't happen) hmm...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

It's humbling

to reread my thoughts from the days past... some of them I wish I could let the world know more - I wish that everyone could also experience the great love of God like He allowed me to in those moments... some I know are not meant to be shared with the whole world in that extent, hahaha, that they are God's gifts, of personal, intimate, sometimes hard and sometimes softly spoken words of love... Never has love been so piercing and so burning - painful, yet healing... It's like medicine, but totally not. Or shall I say, medicine is like that, but totally not.

A momentary pause

In the midst of a day/weekend of studying...

To look upon God's mercy. How can it be? That you my Savior would die for me? For me and my grossnesses. And these stains set so deeply within me, that I can only rightfully expect to be burned along with them and the chains that have sunken in my heart... Nothing can pull apart these cords of death and free me from my tangled snares except His blood. And isn't it so ironic, that blood, which stains heavily and irreversibly, is the only thing that can wash these other stains away? And isn't it strange that this plan set forth so so so long ago, was that the King should die for the salvation of His subjects, who continuously turn away and join His enemy's plans to destroy Him? That we who choose to betray Him are drawn ever closer to His heart... That He appointed these to be by Him forevermore?

It's not just ironic and strange. It's entirely unfair - a total turning of justice, a preposterous mystery that defies what we know to be natural and logical. Sigh..

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

my Savior, my God

i am not skilled to understand
what God has willed, what God has planned
i only know at His right hand
stands One who is my Savior

i take Him at His word indeed
"Christ died for sinners" this I read
for in my heart i find the need
of Him to be my Savior

that He would leave His place on high
and come for sinful man to die
you count it strange? so once did i
before i knew my Savior

my Savior lives, my Savior loves
my Savior's always there for me
my God, He is - my God, He was,
my God, He's always gonna be

yes, living, dying, let me bring
my strength, my solace from this spring
that He who lives to be my King
once died to be my Savior

that He would leave His place on high
and come for sinful man to die
you count it strange? so once did i
before i knew my Savior

my Savior lives, my Savior loves
my Savior's always there for me
my God, He is - my God, He was,
my God, He's always gonna be

- Aaron Shust

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


A spider just crawled on my face. I brushed it off thinking it was just a hair or something... and then I looked on my sleeve and there it was. WAH

In other news though, I think I am becoming narcoleptic. Is that possible? I fall asleep in random times and places and can't seem to stop it. And now I'm paranoid of spiders. *blubberblubberblubber

Friday, May 1, 2009

"If I put my own happiness before the well-being of the work entrusted to me; if, though I have this ministry and have received much mercy, I faint, then I know nothing of Calvary love." p29

"If I cannot rest under the Unexplained, forgetting the word, "And blessed is he whosoever shall not be offended in Me"; or if I can allow the least shadow of a misunderstanding, then I know nothing of Calvary love." p33

"If I am inconsiderate about the comfort of others, or their feelings, or even of their little weaknesses; if I am careless about their little hurts and miss opportunities to smooth their way; if I make the sweet running of household wheels more difficult to accomplish, then I know nothing of Calvary love." p40

"If I slip into a place that can be filled by Christ alone, making myself the first necessity to a soul instead of leading it to fasten upon Him, then I know nothing of Calvary love." p47

"If I wonder why something trying is allowed, and press for prayer that it be removed; if I cannot be trusted with any disappointment, and cannot go in peace under any mystery, then I know nothing of Calvary love." p49

"If I ask to be delivered from trial rather than for deliverance out of it, to the praise of His glory; if I forget that the way of the cross leads to the cross and not to a bank of flowers; if I regulate my life on these lines, or even unconsciously my thinking, so that I am surprised when the way is rough and think it strange, though the word is 'Think it not strange,' 'Count it all as joy,' then I know nothing of Calvary love." p52

"If my attitude be one of fear, not faith... if I forget the poignant word 'Let love be without dissimulation'... then I know nothing of Calvary love.

Perfect love drives out fear.

"I would have despaired unless I believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living" - Psalm 27:13

The aspect of God that most Christians struggle with is not His omnipotence or omniscience, but it is His omnibenevolence... Is God truly Good?